I'm tired of feeling like a monster. I always feel like my actions or words are hurting someone else, especially the people I care about most. I always hurt them without the intention to. I don't mean to be a horrible person. I tend to be an impulsive person (not a good thing sometimes) which is the problem. I do things because I WANT to; because I know they'll make me happy. And then I realize the effect after. The people I've hurt. I wish I was a turtle. Turtles have shells they can crawl into to protect themselves. If I were a turtle.... I think I'd crawl into my shell to protect me from doing stupid things and from seeing the people I love hurt.
I don't hate myself, I just wish I were a better person.
"do what makes you happy and fuck the rest"-from little miss sunshine. anddd maybe reading mills untiltarianism will help you
ReplyDeletehttp://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/John_Stuart_Mill#Utilitarianism
if you don't know what i mean just text me i don't feel like explaining my reasons right now.